" Touch Me
- Touch Me Not"
Rev. Kit
Billings
April 3,
2005
Psalm 143
Luke 24:36-45; John 20:10-18
Doctrinal quote: The Lord's conjunction with man does not exist
except in love and charity, for the Lord is love itself and mercy. He wills to
save everyone and by His mighty power to draw them towards heaven, that is,
towards Himself. The Lord desires to be fully conjoined with
humans. It is impossible for anybody to be joined to the Lord except by
means of that which He Himself is, that is, except by acting like Him, or
becoming one with Him - that is to say, by loving the Lord in return, and
loving the neighbor as oneself. This constitutes the very essence of a
covenant. When conjunction results from this, it quite plainly follows that the
Lord is present.
~ Heavenly
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So much can be
discussed in these great Scripture lessons before us this morning, but I would
like to limit my remarks with you to this subject: that there is significance in these early resurrection accounts
of us hearing our risen, glorified Lord saying two opposite things to His
disciples, “touch me and see” and “touch me not.” The deeper meaning of this comes forth once we begin to examine
the spiritual meaning of touch.
Isn’t it
interesting that Jesus after His resurrection and glorification advised His
followers to take hold of Him in the Lukan version and then in John the
Lord commanded Mary to touch Him not.
What do these seemingly opposite attitudes from the Lord mean? What is going on here?
The teachings of our church help us understand why,
given what we find what happened whenever Jesus would have physical contact
with anyone—the Gospel record reveals what I am about to share. Everything natural has its spiritual
correspondence, and Christ was immensely concerned with the inner meaning of
what He said and did. Thus, the
spiritual meaning of “touch” or “touching” held deep meaning, especially when
associated with Jesus Christ in His fully glorified and divine state. In short, as our theology explains, “by the
‘laying on of hands’ by the Lord, and also by His ‘touching,’ is here signified
the communication and reception of Divine power….” (AC 10023) In the spiritual depth of life, which is
seen most remarkably in what happens in the spiritual world after we physically
die, whenever a spirit or angel touches another there is something deep and
special that happens—that is, there is a deep communication of each person’s
more inward feelings and thoughts, and also a spiritual depth of connection and
mutual sharing of life. The Lord
understood these spiritual truths. We
read throughout the Gospels of the kinds of miracles and spiritual
communication that happened when Christ laid His hands on people and touched
them or when someone else would reach out and touch the Lord.
We read for example: “A woman touching the garment
of Jesus was healed, and immediately her bleeding stopped. ‘Who touched Me?’ Jesus asked. ‘Someone touched Me; for I know that power
has gone out from Me.” (Lk. 8:44,46)
And also: “The whole crowd sought to touch Jesus, because power went
forth from Him, and healed all.” (Lk. 6:19)
And lastly, “Jesus
took babes upon His arms, and put His hands upon them, and blessed them.” (Mark
10:16) One gets the sense here that
whenever we finite humans get very close to the Lord and have any sort of
contact with Him, there is a kind of powerful energy and love exchange. So the question now becomes, would there
ever be a state of mind that the Lord’s followers might enter into that would
make it important for them not to get into physical contact with Him, especially
once Jesus had entered into His fully glorified condition?
During the Lord’s death and eventual resurrection on
the third day, the disciples were going through a lot inside. Deep down they loved their Master very much,
and yet they struggled at times with doubt, confusion, uncertainty, and
fear—the same kinds of spiritual and psychological struggles we often encounter
within ourselves. Christ understood
this about His followers and respected their ambivalence, which is why He was
not always wanting to allow Mary and the others to touch Him. Just as He did not force others to believe
in Him by taking Himself down off the cross, our Lord God did not want to force
those closest to Him to be deeply conjoined with Him. Journeying with Jesus the Christ (or rather, “God with us”) will
bring us into contact with many uncertainties about who He really is, as well
as whether or not we feel up to the challenge of living in deep connection with
the Lord and His quality of love, especially when this love draws us into the
inevitable direction of putting it into action in our daily lives with our
fellow human beings.
An Old Testament character who exemplifies this
struggle is Jonah. When God commanded
him to go to Nineveh and preach God’s Word to the people of that city, Jonah’s
prejudice got in the way, which is what ultimately landed Jonah in the belly of
that great fish. Similarly, it can be
easy for most of us to have certain forms of prejudice and serious dislike for
people who are different than we are.
God’s Word, however, inspires us to see all people as our brothers and
sisters, as fellow children of God, and to essentially care about everyone. Even beyond this, the Lord revealed in His
value about being willing to have physical contact with every sort of person
imaginable illustrates the importance of more deeply spiritual people needing
to have a willingness to feel open and vulnerable to potentially anyone. It’s the difference between essentially
choosing to be walled off and closed toward your fellow men and women,
teenagers or children, or fundamentally open to them…willing to connect. Martin Buber, the renowned Jewish scholar of
the 20th century, described the difference between these two
opposite attitudes; it’s an issue, he believed, between seeing myself and
others as essentially separate, or essentially interwoven…joined. He described the two most basic forms of how
we relate with our world and the people in it:
we may see ourselves and others as having either “I-it” relationships or
“I-thou” relationships. It is
impossible not to have both forms of living going on in our lives—but the vital
question is here, which form of relating are we intentionally pursuing in life,
which one do we want the most?
“I-it” relationships are like those that doctors need to have with their patients, or when a scientist is studying something to gain knowledge about it—these typify our human tendency to be in relationship with others wanting them to be at arms length, removing an essential intimacy and vulnerability. However, it is possible, Buber wrote, for us to enter more deeply into an interaction, without a lot of pre-conceived notions, wearing of masks, and having much pretense. The bonds that then tend to happen enlarge both persons and each person responds by trying to enhance the other one within the conversation or connection. Buber maintained that it is possible to have an “I-Thou” relationship with the world and the objects in it as well. Art, music, poetry are all possible media for such responses in which true dialogue can take place.
Buber’s research also reveals that
we can have most of one or the other of these two basic forms of relating with
God, and at times both will be necessary for us to engage. And so, as Christians, there will typically
be both kinds of needs within us too—sometimes needing more of an “I-it”
relationship with Christ, while others needing an “I-thou” connection.
The Lord came into this world to save us. That is, to redeem us spiritually and
restore our spiritual freedom, and also to gradually over time conjoin with us
in our spiritual affections and thinking in Him, which leads us into actions
that reflect the Divine in life. This
fleshes out our once dry, spiritual bones, and makes them breathe with life
again! It draws us unto God, through
the power we receive in our will (which comes from Him really) to re-join with
the Lord. New Church doctrine has it
right: “The Lord
desires to be fully conjoined with humans. It is impossible for anybody
to be joined to the Lord except by means of that which He Himself is, that is,
except by acting like Him, or becoming one with Him -- that is to say, by
loving the Lord in return, and loving the neighbor as oneself. This
constitutes the very essence of a covenant.” This develops within us our
true and God-centered humanity, for which we were all born in the first
place. However, drawing nearer to God
tends to excite and wake up many inherited evil inclinations within us, which
often throws us into spiritual temptation battles and struggles. And Jesus our Lord is ever so aware of
this.
The Lord, to be sure, understood the deeper meaning and significance of
the Old Testament. That is, that it was
a reflection of the spiritual journey that Jesus would undergo, as well as
every one of us who walks a similar kind of path as Jesus did, yet different in
that Jesus gradually became fully Divine while we are transformed by the
Divine [as an aside, you and I will always be finite, created by God. Christ’s soul was God, which
gradually glorified everything finite in Him from His human mother, making His
humanity Divine]. So you see, the Lord understood that just as the
Psalms move in and out of spiritual highs, plateaus and lows, so do you and
I. And it is important that we do this
interior fluctuation of our inner state.
It is vital that we encounter our weaknesses and doubts and fears of living
with and within the Spirit of our Lord Jesus, who is very much with us every
day. Psalm 143 speaks so
incredibly well of these realities, which were clearly going through the hearts
and minds of the disciples also. As we
read earlier in Psalm 143: “…my spirit is overwhelmed within me; my
heart within me is distressed.”
Whenever human beings are encountering Christ risen
and glorified, we will enter periods of deeply wanting to be joined with Him,
and so the Lord says to us also, “Touch me here, for no spirit has flesh and
bones as I have.” And then, inevitably,
we shall experience opposite states of being, when we are uncertain or are
confused by the Divine love that the Lord wants to send through us and then
back toward Him and our fellow neighbor.
The Lord’s resurrection happened around life’s darkest and most painful
forms of evil and hatred and cruelty.
And we should take note that in the appearances Christ made with His
disciples after the resurrection He did not shy away from showing them the
holes in His hands and feet and the spear wound in His side. We must face facts my friends: life in this world is going to hurt us
sometimes…the Lord put an exclamation point on that fact when He showed His
followers those wounds on His body. The
evils and darkness of Hell are still here, and so we too will get hurt and
betrayed and knocked around in awful ways by it, which creates wonderment and
doubt at times toward the amazingly unselfish love, mercy and forgiveness in
Jesus Christ.
The Lord understands and has mercy for our frailties
and weaknesses, and will not force conjunction and joining with Him when we
really are not ready for it. This, once
again, is another sign of the truth of His pure love for us. For like the woman plagued with years of
disease, if or when we are ready to again touch our Lord and Savior there will then
be a transference of the Lord’s healing and gracious love into us…it will flow
into us. There then occurs a
communication of Divine power…life is renewed again! But sometimes we just are not ready for such intimacy and
closeness with the Lord, sometimes it is better for Him to say to us, “Touch me
not.” As Carla Friedrich once wrote
about this reality, “In
these sentences, the Lord acknowledges also our ambivalent nature toward
Him and humanity and our failure to recognize truth, good and
opportunity for change when it is right beside us. The Lord
recognizes our very real despair and our hope.”
In other words, He
understands that in the deeper wellsprings of life within us, our greatest hope
and desire is life and conjunction with Him.
He will always ultimately draw us respectfully toward this end, but He
will also honor the fact that sometimes with Him it will be too much for us
inside to have and “I-thou” connection with Him. And at those times Christ is also saying to us, “Touch me
not.” However, we must be clear on what
the Lord’s desire and goal is with us, to be closely connected with Him, as we
read in our doctrine (which is drawn essentially directly out of God’s Word): “He
wills to save everyone and by His mighty power to draw them towards heaven,
that is, towards Himself. The Lord desires to be fully conjoined with
humans. It is impossible for anybody to be joined to the Lord except by
means of that which He Himself is, that is, except by acting like Him, or
becoming one with Him -- that is to say, by loving the Lord in return, and
loving the neighbor as oneself.” And clearly at these wonderful times of life
Jesus is saying toward our own ears, “Touch me personally, and know that I am
God.” For when we are spiritually
touching the Lord He is able to communicate the Divine power of His love
through our life, and this constitutes our spiritual salvation in Jesus Christ.
May the Lord’s peace and goodness always light and empower your way. Amen.